ahhhh damn it i hate 2 be sick n be in be in bed 4 a long time

man i hate 2 be sick when im sick i feel like i have no life lolz i meant seriously i have 2 sit n lie down on my bed 2 heal .ahhh damn it wat can i do ahh freaking hell no la im thinking of making an album but thatll cost a bomb seriously like 2000 or maybe three k i guess where can i get that kind of freaking money lolz itz better if that money is spend on my education i wanna go in music shcl again itll be fun or maybe apply 4 some other freaking education ahh I dunt want to go into  NS coz im not ready plus my depression aint right yet sometimes its low it can go up like anytime i noe i pray n stuff my depression level never changes i just dunt noe where i can find a cure some1 please help me ahhzzz seriously .