Theshadow.warrior

Whats up guys its been a long time since I touch this blog I feel like just bringin this blog down but im trying to get my anxiety attack away and my anger management lol been in n out of imh ever since n sime other place I dont wanna say I feel so pressured tjat I cant control my emotions and mood my mood keep on swinging here n there amd I feel like Leviathan taking over because of my doubts of my own self I dont know if I can love up to my sisters expectations or my family's one for that matter I feel tensed and the other thing is that I feel like im the cause of everyone aroujd me grts angry its like when I feel it within myself it spreads to my friends like a virus I domt know how I can stop it sometimes I feel like jumping off my heart cries and sometimes I feel so happy like nobody else is happy its my mood swings I meditate but my intuition is making my logic minus not plus I try n find the balance but I cant its not easy sayimg is easy but doing it is freaking hard omg I am in love but uhm I dont wanna rush ot like my other relationship bcoz that way I can learn the.person more n stuff.  Sometimes when I see my old friend fb or  saw him face to face ill get an anxiety attack my hand trembles n my legs get weak I still jave it but it doenst happen all of the time like everyday..  Its like I have it sometimes 1 a week or 10 times a week anyway im just pouring my feelings out..  Man theres this guy that keeps getting into trouble and he acts like ue doesnt know it seriously of je has mental illness I can see it but I dont wanna lnow why because his acting well im not judging im just saying what I think about him