AHHHHHH Darn it i really wish she forgive me .. please forgive me clarice please

Please please please forgive me clarice please can we talk soon idk im kinda buzy with my stuff and plus im goin out on the 9 and ill be back on the 15 or 17 well its gonna be a holiday but im not sure i wanna go or not walau eh i have 2 save lolz but nvm la just save so tat i can buy some of the stuff there . I just wish that either joey or clarice can understand my feelings im a person wholl fight 2 the bitter end coz i noe my time of judgment day is at hand or is near i just dunt wanna go away without ur nice words i just dunnoe wat 2 say right now if im dead i wanna forgive my family for not being the best but still iwanna be the best  there is there was and there ever will be. I really feel like being just a dead person no matter how many times i make friends i make more enemies than friends thats why maybe i just have 2 be alone 4 ever and ever in the darkness even my own family is kinda like my enemy now idk why i just feel this way.